Insomnia rampant

Insomnia is the worst. Wanting to sleep, dearly, desperately, wanting to sleep. But unable to subdue to this so called thing normal people do. If I didn't get to horrendously bored with just sitting or laying on my bed, it wouldn't be that bad. But there comes a time when enough is enough. Normally when my fan is on, the low pitch tone and cool breeze will knock me out in about 30 minutes of trying, but recently nothing has worked. I don't take medicine unless a doctor says to. Which then I will sometimes not even take my medicine. I don't believe in medicine. Not even aspirin. I just want to sleep naturally, and I have heard Valerian root helps. It is a natural thing I could take but I still don't. Maybe I need to be more open minded about medicine and its glory.

Other than my insomnia during the night light hours, the daylight hours were quite nice today. Was hanging out with Rodger today, for about five hours give or take. We went to subway with his girlfriend, and went to the coffee shop, yes, the shitty one. Didn't get much done today like we wanted but we did have various chats about random things with another one of our friends Derek.

Tomorrow, I am going to go to the kawasaki dealer in Mendon to look to see if they have any ninja 250s. I plan on getting one over the summer after I find employment, which I need quite desperately. If I had a job my life would just fall into place. I would really like that to happen.

To finish off this blog, Zoe is coming down on Saturday. Excited? YES! She has to accompany some people for their solo and ensemble pieces. So I will be hanging out with her all day. It should be nice. I am really looking forward to seeing her this weekend.

All is well for me. I am actually quite happy. Surprisingly. It is not a very normal occurrence.

-A

Earlier today

I was having some mental/emotional issues.. and I starting plotting out this blog. But honestly, I don't want to write the blog I had been planning for about two hours earlier. Because everything right now is perfect. Everything has been resolved, and I am happier than ever. I get down, and stay down for quite some time, but I always turn out being happy. I made this blog to vent to, which I do from time to time, but this time, this time I don't need to vent.

-A

Paths

Do you ever think we have a set path in life? And that the path provided for us can be changed by random occurrences? Or that we forge our own destiny, with new destinations in life? So many questions, so few answers...

This weekend

I haven't really blogged much this weekend which I do apologize for. I have been pretty active this weekend. Zoe and I went to South Haven on Saturday. I had a lot of fun. I think we both did. Got to see the sun set (all three of them. Yes, I did say all three of them. The civil, nautical, and the astronomical. At least if you hate my blog you learned something reading it.) We also walked up and down the beach after the sun set. I love our movie esque moments. We are so cliche. But it always feels so perfect when I am with her.

I also just got done working on my car. I had to fix some minor things, such as my neon inside my car and a speaker wire was coming loose from one of my speakers so I had to fix that. Pretty quick fix.

I loved the weather today. It hit about 85 degrees today. And I was complaining about the heat.. That's Michigan for you. Bitch about the cold, then bitch about the heat. But I am looking forward to more days like today, and this weekend for that matter.

-A